Hello again!!

It has been a very long time since my previous blog. So many things had happened during my absence and everything was fabulous. One thing significant: I AM A MOTHER!

Yes, I can now proudly call myself a mother. I was blessed with a precious baby girl on 11 March 2005. She was safely delivered at 6.03am at Kajang Hospital after 9 hours of contractions. It was hell painful and until now I'm still unsure whether I could suffer it again for my next baby, but for sure, all the pains seem to vanish once I set my eyes upon her. She was so beautiful, fair, soft and delicate. She has my eyes but her forehead, chin and lips resemble her father. The first time she was put in my arms I felt so grateful, so happy.. so speechless. She’s my baby and I love her so much. We called her, Nur Hazieqa Firdani which mean “The brilliant and comforting light”.

At first, like every other first time parents, me and my husband were going thru the “Baby Blues” phase. The odd hours of feeding time, the late nite waking, lack of sleeping, breast feeding problems etc. etc. etc…  it was quite a trying moment.. However we manage to go thru it with patience and love. Thank god my baby is not the crying type. She sleeps most of the time and doesn’t give us many problems. However, when she was 3 days old, she was having jaundice and was admitted to the Hospital for 2 days. She was warded in the ICU and the doctors had made us signed the release form for blood transfusion. They said that if the jaundice is still high and increasing, they will have to change her blood with somebody else from the blood bank as to get rid of the damage blood. The risk is, she might facing brain and body organs damage due to the procedure. The doctor however assures us that the bad chances are really low to 1%. Nevertheless, it still scares us like hell. I wasn’t sleeping for 2 days to care for her and I cried most of the time.

Hi.. me again.. anyway nothing much to say today as I'm doing nuthing at the office and all the big bossess are not around... yabedabeduu..

Btw, today I'm officially an RHB Islamic Banking staff.. The new RHB subsidiary. So, bye-bye to RHB. Quite sad tho.. worried.. since the future is still unsure. I feel quite lost here.. being in IT division but without IT surrounding. In fact I can say that I'm the only person with IT background here. I really not sure what they mean with IT at this office since my work from the first day is mainly surfing the portal, chit-chatting, write some lousy paperwork (clerical job) etc.. etc.. etc.. It didn't look IT at all. I feel so wasted-up. All my experience, my knowledge gone into the drain just like dat..

Last nite I fought with abg again. We fight a lot especially during my pregnancy.. Dunno.. perhaps my pregnancy has make me more sarcastic, more emotional and more temper... Abg please forgive me.. yayang mintak ampun sbb slalu marah-marah abg.. I'm so scared with the labour, the baby's health (forgot to inform that I got diabetis during my pregnancy.. which could have a serious impact on my baby). Our financial state is quite bad.. but not so critical.. however I'm still worried as the family expanses increases.. with the baby on the way, hospitalization, loans, credit cards, family obligations.. yadda yadda yak..

Oh, one more thing, last nite we both had put our heads together for that SILK Highway contest... hopefully that we will win our dream house at Sunway Semenyih... that will help a lot especially when our financial status is at stake.. plus my mom is retiring next year and we'll surely need to find another place to live.. couldn't afford to live at Sg. Buloh (the house that abg has bought).. its too far away from civilization.. not to mention the cost of transportation to the office and wuts not! Hopefully, we would win that dream house.. plzz god.. ameen!

At last!!! fuh... lama siutt since my last time here... almost forgot everything. Seems that my work at RHB has changed everything. Believe it or not, I'm now married and will be blessed with a baby soon.. :D  Last time I wus here I was still single!!! I really missed everything.. missed my lovely blog, my old life at PRSB, megat and fairuz and kak rozi, my old PC.. mamak scum at office.. yadda yadda yak! I really missed everything. As if I have my life turn to something else. From a crazy, happy-go-lucky and active young executive into a boring, typical wife and mum to be.. hopefully my 'baby' will change everything for me!! Ameen...

p/s : need to remind myself to get a new PC with Internet access next time! Or I would be lost in the boring life forever!!! :(

count down to the marriage... another 3 weeks to go!

Alhamdulillah...!!  I think I'm so happy today n  never been the happiest.. :) Last evening in the car with En. Zuhaiman heading towards Selayang (to install n upgrade the POS system for one of our client) I got a call from RHB HQ. guess wut? I'd succedded in the test and interview and they are going to offer me the job!!!! yeyyyy!!! at last i'm outta here! bye-bye prsb... !! the job offer is wonderful and something dat i would never expect to get... with the excellent pay and wonderful insentives... perghhh i'm so damn happy!!!!! thank you god... i'm your really2 gratefull servant! I should report duty within 1 month and .. i'll be entitled with all the banking benefits.. with RM300K worth of housing loan at the interest rate of 4% a year, a car loan, study loan, medical and dental benefit, etc etc etc.. yadda yadda yak! I'll be working in an establish environment... pursuing my carrer... life, and at the same time not abandoning the family... it's like a dream comes true.. thank you god... i'm so so gratefull! My life will change in a month. I'll be Mrs. Hanif, and I'm going to work at a new place, staying at the new house.. It is so great!

sheeh.. :) I can't stop smiling today. Nothing can stop me from being happy today.  i'm so happy. (Have I mention it?)